and now concerning balance. if you ask me, pastor jon, maggie or anyone else called to ministry that also works vocationally and you’ll hear a similar response, “i struggle with finding the balance.” i’ve found this church very understanding of it’s leaders being bi-vocational. it’s not the same at every church. personally, in talking with pastor jon he’s stated that he understands that at this point the church isn’t able to provide me with an adequate compensation to provide for my family and so he understands that at times work will out weigh ministry and that that’s ok. my first priority is to provide for myself and my family.
pastor understands this obviously because he’s also in the same boat. and especially you and maggie who don’t draw a salary from the church. and even though the church may pay for costs connected with you going to a leadership/development conference (registration/gas/food/books/etc) it still isn’t free since they aren’t necessarily compensating for lost pay at the ‘other’ job.
and so this is a topic that reoccurs in my thoughts consistently. “if i’m truly called should i quit my ‘other’ job to devote more time to ministry and rely on God to supply for my every need?” or would that simply be foolish since this IS the means that God has chosen to provide for my needs while doing ministry? paul in the new testament was also a tent-maker after-all.
and then i also came to a point where i had to admit no matter how much time i was able to devote to ministry, “would it ever be enough?” the call seems so big how could it ever all get done? i had to sit back and give it to God and say, “it’s in your hands Lord, i’ve done what i can, may your grace be sufficient in my weakness” (2 cor 12.9)
hope that helps.
it’s a topic that fluctuates in my mind every so often. and then if you throw ‘family’ into the mix, the balancing act gets even trickier.
on one hand, i think i should have enough faith to only do ministry and trust God to provide for my family’s needs? on the other hand, i think shouldn’t i also see my ‘secular’ job as also a ministry, a place for me to shine God’s light in the midst of a hurting world? and then on another hand (yes more hands than i actually have) i think it’s the church’s fault for not being able to pay their staff full time wages, “if they just gave more!”. isn’t there a verse somewhere about oxen and muzzling? but then again, i knew the size of the church and the compensation they were able to provide before choosing to come. and then on the other hand, i think if i were able to devote more time to ministry, then maybe the church would grow quicker, and then they’d be able to pay staff better. but then i’m reminded that that sounds a lot like taking the role of the Holy Spirit, i can’t do one thing to ‘grow the church’ that’s HIS job.
in the end i think the balance is more of a give and take. it isn’t always a 30% of me goes to work, 30% goes to ministry, 30% goes to family, and the remaining 10% goes to eating, sleeping, and myself time. the fact is there’s sometimes that a lot of my time is devoted to ministry because of an upcoming event or project. and then there’s times that my family gets priority.
and then there’s the whole other conversation of time spent not doing what you want to do, but have to do because it pays the bills. like i spend about 7 hours at school everyday. do i like it? ya it’s ok. do i feel most productive there?? in a word, no. do i feel that i could be elsewhere most of the time? most of the time. why do i continue then? because it’s the largest portion of our income, and it’s relatively easy.
as i’ve said before, the kids used to ask me why i was going to school. i stopped answering a long time ago, “because that’s where i work.” i now say, “because they pay me to be there.”
so lets do the math: 7 hours at school + 7 hours sleeping + 2 hours doing misc (getting ready, eating, driving, etc.) = that leaves 33% of my day to do 90% of what i care about. (family, ministry, exercise, and ‘me’ time)
as you can see and probably experience daily, it’s quite a balancing act simply to stay SANE and keep relationships ‘getting along’.
i’m thankful for 2 cor. 12.9, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.”
// today i’m thankful for:
1. 3 month old babies (rachel)
2. a house of our own
3. fishtailing fun, while driving
4. a ‘free’ friday night