this pregnant princess is grumpy

i don’t want to write anything. i don’t feel like being nice. i’m not sure if this is okay to admit. i don’t picture a princess as having grumpy days. i’m not upset at anyone in particular- i just feel grumpy. and i’m not sure how to pull myself out of this slump.

my castle is currently under renovation. i got this wonderful idea this past weekend to rearrange all of the bedrooms. that means my oldest daughter’s room moved to the pink room that the others two girls were sharing; those girls moved into the master bedroom; my furniture and stuff was moved out to my office (which is much bigger than our other room, but has no closet); the couch and t.v. that were in my office were put in the room designated as the nursery- so it is now a cozy family/t.v. room; and finally the crib and rocking chair were placed in my oldest daughter anna’s room (there will also be room in there for a small extra bed for guests-specifically grandma). thankfully my amazing husband abraham got the brilliant idea to enlist the help of the youth group that would be meeting at our house sunday night. so most of the moving was completed within an hour and a half. nonetheless, there is still a lot of stuff out that hasn’t found a place to land- it is still looking for a home. and i just don’t have the energy to take on this overwhelming project of organizing this mess. maybe i need a bigger garbage can.

i just feel like a horrible mother, too. i want so badly to clean up the house that i focus any energy i can find-which isn’t much- on cleaning. i don’t feel like i have any attention to give my kids. then they act up in order to get attention and i get upset with their antics and i send everyone outside. i hope we can survive the arrival of this new kid. i just want to cry- hormones can be so frustrating sometimes.

i’m not really fishing for sympathy. i just hoped i’d feel better if i let out some of my grumpy feelings.

on a lighter note, my good friend sarah gave birth to her fourth son this afternoon. i am so excited for her- she’s not pregnant anymore. i feel that she has what it takes to raise these little men to be Godly princes: a relationship with God, an incredibly dedicated and committed husband, and a sense of humor. (keep up the good work, sarah).

okay, i’m done now. my mom is coming to visit me tomorrow for her birthday and i’d like to take her to get manicures. i sure hope i don’t feel grumpy tomorrow. i can’t help feeling lumpy, but i don’t want to be grumpy.

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  1. i pray, by looking at your strawberries in your front yard, they will make you happy by their exsquisiteness.

    I pray your pictures on the computer will bring you laughter and joy.

    i pray the smell of rain will freshen.

    I pray your tolerance with annoyances will rise up like a huge fluffy cushiony cloud.

    i pray you will have good God time to set your princess castle apart and shining on a beautifully sculpted hill.

    i pray your time on yourself will refocus your eyes, to see how incredibly beautiful you are.

  2. okay.. last night in the ‘improve your serve’ we were talking about hospitality.

    we were talking whether it was outside the house, or housebound.

    deb, can you go to the site, “http://www.pbv.thunder-bay.on.ca/NetSermons/1pet4ser.html

    i really liked what it had to say.

    so it basically went over that hospitality goes far beyond welcoming someone in your house. (1 peter 4:7-11)

    So, were all of you guys, cauze you have been in the church forever, understanding what this person was talking about and didn’t share that, or did you actually never hear that before?

    thats got to be a huge christian them, if we are defining terms and vocabulary according to that person’s site.

    or is it not such a dichotomous issue, or is the vocabulary defined different ways in different applications?

    thank you deb!

    holly

  3. okay.. this hospitality issue must be much more complicated then i thought.

    [i promise this will be my last bothering blog to you today. and i won’t harrass you as much in the future.]

    okay.. i just went to another site and read more. it is:

    http://www.rci.rutgers.edu/~lcrew/joyanyway/joy217.html

    this person lists ‘greeters’ in the church as an example of hospitality.

    so if you are the head of the greeters at church, and you must have a passion from god for greeters, and if women typically practice hospitality visably, and if you are heading up the women’s ministry,and you have a passion from God for women’s ministry that includes hospitality, and if you were speaking from yourself, then this is a way more complicated issue then i thought.

    so what gets defined in hospitality from the greeters perspective?

    and the women’s ministry perspective?

    and the princess of the lord perspective?

    or were you just tired and didn’t feel like discussing hospitality last night?

  4. Thanks for being happy that I’m not pregnant anymore. I know how hard it was for me to still be pregnant after a friend has given birth. Your almost done, and I am so excited for you!!

    I can’t believe I had another boy!! I was SURE I was having a girl!! The world needs more godly men… I pray we can raise our boys to be those men!

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